The Nutz

I am interested in getting back into Pokerstars as I have been using UltimateBet for some time now but they just updated their software and I am disgusted with the new interface. However, I can only use instant e-checks and I do not want to wait 10 days. I can instantly deposit funds on FTP though so can anyone trade $300 on Pokerstars for $300 on FTP

I am going friggin nutz right now and I cannot stand this feeling. The pathetic thing is that I know this feeling. I am very very familiar with it although it has been a few months since I felt it. Back in July (after playing live home games for several years) Me and my friend discovered online poker. We were also deceived into thinking we could beat the games after having our first two nights exceedingly profitable. However, I had never heard of bankroll management and played 2/4 with low roll. It took a little over a month for me to blow 4 thousand. I was completely broke - I saved up some more money back in August and tried again and got bored with the low stakes and tried moving up and went bust again. Now I was completely flat ass broke - I could barely afford groceries. So I spent the entire month of September rebuilding my life. On Oct 3rd I deposited $200 in Pokerstars with a desire for a new beginning. It is now Oct 9th and I am bust off of straight NL 10 - Fucking ridiculous. Poker is my passion and I love the game and I don't even want to begin to think about giving up but it is literally ruining my life.